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Revealed on February 1st,
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So I never fully explained how fucked up this past few weeks really have been.
It started with my mom. She's a tellar at scotiabank and they got robbed two weeks ago and she had a gun pointed in her face. Then my dad had to go in for his third surgery on his bladder and they thought it was cancer. He's stuck at home bow on the couch for 2 months.
And last but not least. My grandma. My dads mom, meme. She's ha cancer for like 9 years and has been battling it out strong. Suddenly the past few weeks have gotten worse. She has had a tonne of bloody noses and her blood pressure has been really low. And last night she had a heart attack and she stopped breathing. They had to resusitate her. Apparantly she is functioning but who knows. Anything could happen. I just hope that when I go back to school that something bar will happen. Because the last traumatic thing I missed when I was at school was Oreo passing away. The last thing I need is that to happen again. My mom won't let me stay here. She wants me to go back to school. Ugh. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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Revealed on January 31st,
2009 @ 3:29 am
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It's pathetic. For the past while i've had the luxury if being able to sleep next to Thomas. And now that I'm not next to him I can't seem to sleep.
My dads back from the hospital. He's not in the greatest shape but he's alright. I'm glad I'm home to at least hang out with him for a bit.
No doubt is going on tour!!! Can you believe that? It's been what? 5 years since their last tour? That's crazy!! And the best part is. Is that paramore is touring with them. I love that:) Anyways. I'm on my iPhone. Writing my first post in a million years and I should try to sleep again. Even tho I've tried like 10 times. I have a lot to do tomorrow. I'm supposed to visit my uncle and his girlfriend. I am supposed to have band practice (but I doubt that that will happen cause Thomas and everyone works. So that sucks for me) and then my Thomas is having people over for the ufc. And I have to try and get some home work done cause I gotta get back to school sunday and I have a lot of readings to do and stuff. Yay, Not. :( Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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Revealed on July 31st,
2008 @ 1:36 am
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so since i havnt written in here in what seems like ages cause that happens. I write in stages, i thought id catch up with whats been happening with my life.
Western completley fucked me over. Thier assholes. and i was forced to transfer to fanshawe, but i have a feeling that the program im heading into is more geared towards what i want to do anyways.
My ideal job is to work for a label and scout bands. Just travel and listen to bands and maybe potentially get them signed to the label im working for. And it has to be a decent label, it cant be a shit label.
Distance Between Stars. Thats the band. Its all working out and to be honest. Its feels so good to be true that im scared something bad will happen. Which terrifies me to no end because this is what i live for. When i write with these guys, when we play either in the space or even a small show, im just so happy. I just feel good. If anything goes wrong with it. I'll Cry. for days.
Robyn and i arnt really friends anymore and its super upsetting. Its not like i wanted it to happen. Its not like i hoped this was going to go down. She said the other day our paths are just not near one another and its unfortunate but true. Im just sorta over it. Over it like im over boys. Super tired of being let down and its weird, im super happy. I havnt been this stoked in a while, but i mean being alone is never awesome. But i dont need to be with anyone. Im super content.
Konrad and I are still good friends, which makes me happy that we can still carry a friendship after everything that happened. Im a lover, not a fighter.
He told me the other day, "of course i still like you" but its different. We dont anymore, and it really shows. I think its a good thing all of this happened, im ready to just be alone for a while and have fun. Being tied down is lame, especially when your being let down, cheated on, lied to, or ditched. Its just not worth it.
Sometimes i have to be selfish in ways where all i can think about is myself other wise the things i want to get done in my life just wouldnt happen.
Stelco is lame.
i like fun times. movies. laughs. talks. drinks. walks. and even sits.
Play Oliver is stuck in my head.
Maybe one day, you'll tell me everything youve ever thought of me. Maybe one day you'll say all the things youve wanted to say but never have. Maybe one day you'll make up for what you did and maybe, just maybe things will be okay.
Either way. i will be ok.
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Revealed on March 2nd,
2008 @ 1:30 pm
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i dont understand life sometimes...
I just signed a lease for an appartment for next year.
Im supposed to be doing university funness.
I just found a band who might possibly be interested in having me as thier singer.
They actually play the kind of music that im interested in playing.
Im kinda stoked.
I just got back from miami.
and i dont know whats going to happen in my life.
Im kinda bummed out.
P.S- Kon threw up all over me last night and all over his moms bed. - Not Impressed.
It kinda sucked because our cranium game was ruined.
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| so things are good... |
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Revealed on July 20th,
2007 @ 11:52 pm
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So things have never been better.. I mean im graduated from highschool now, and im off to University in less then 45 days. That sounds super weird to say. haha. Wow.
How fast time flies. Its crazy to think i just did four years of highschool and now im back to school in the fall.
Western What What!
I wonder what i will be doing in like 5 years. It always makes me wonder. I mean i asked myself this question when i was graduating public school, and now im heading off to the coolest school on the planet for the coolest subject. Music and Media. Who wouldnt want to study that?
Anyways, ive met lots of people on facebook who are going into the same program and i love meeting people who have the same interests as me.
I work full time which sucks balls.
Other then that im out on double dates with Heather, Joel and Konrad.
Its probably my favourite times ever and im totally going to miss them when im gone.
Heather better miss them too.
Shes going to Brock.
Shes my best friend.
I can tell her everything. We have the same sense of humor.
I know i piss her off sometimes when im slow or late.
OR im making her or Joel wait for me to get ready.
But I dont know if ive ever told heather this,
But shes probably the best thing thats ever happened to me.
I can tell her anything, and shes always here for me.
Shes the one person im going to miss uoooooober amounts when im gone.
Tomorrow is her birthday.
I spoiled her.
I cant wait for her to open her present.
Im going to TImmies with her and Joel in like 5 minutes.
I work tomorrow at 8 too, so i should go to sleep soon.
Love you Heather.!!!
(Konrads at Chapters waiting for the 7th Harry Potter to come out. Apparantly there are over 100 people there) haha thats insane.
Konrad rules dawns socks.<3
Dondrea the great.
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| Its finally back to normal. |
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Revealed on May 29th,
2007 @ 3:23 pm
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Its weird how fast things do actually change ha.
Things are finally back to normal. I had prom last weekend and let me tell you, it was insane. I loved it, haha. I wish i could do it again haha. It went by so fast though.
I won Dorthy from Wizard of Oz, the three D cardboard person, haha its standing in my living room right now, it actually looks like a person when you walk in the room. Not only have i scared family members with it, but i still scare myself with it haha.
Schools almost out as well. Im about like three weeks from being done and i still have tonnes of work to do. A few projects and a couple essays still to write. Its still exciting though. My graduation is on the 28th of June. Im having a little ice cream party for it haha, after the ceremony that is.
The other day i went to La Spagette for Konrad's mother's birthday. On our way home in the car we passed the parking lot where the Zellers, Fortinos and Wendies and stuff is, and i had a huge flash back of the time i was crying on the phone from having a bad day and i remembered kon saying the words, "I just need to go away for a while." i was kinda sad for a while. Till i remembered where i was. In his car, with his arm around me. Its all back to normal, as if it never even happened. I like that. But i also remember everything but thats okay, because we have both learned many things about each other since then.
So things with Kon are really good now : ) Im really happy. Hes like my best friend ever. I tell him everything, and im an extremely lucky girl to have the relationship that we have. I'm thankful for him everyday.
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| Constantly Changing |
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Revealed on April 23rd,
2007 @ 12:33 pm
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Its so true, the statement that "no one ever stays the same" we are all changing. I mean im sure its not that big of a deal and that it wont turn into something huge. I also know that i can't judge her and tell her whats right and whats wrong, because she can do what she wants. I will always love her whether she makes bad mistakes or not, cause thats how close we are. But hurts me to see her doing this.. To see her changing. It sucks. Period.
My best friend is, i dont want to say doing it alot, but is smoking pot with her "other" friends every now and then. Its not a bad thing that shes doing this, cause alot of people do, but I am friends with these "other" friends but im not as close to them as she is. Im so proud of her that she has her own group that she loves, cause well, im a social butterfly, i love meeting people and getting to know individuals, i get along with almost everyone. She doesn't and ever since switched to come to my school she sorta had troubles finding that group.
Well she's found it, and it was up untill this year that she was my "perfect" best friend. That makes no sense to you im sure.
Its true though. Her and I were perfect, we never ever faught. We only had one fight in our entire friendship and it was over something ridiculous. I dont even remember what it was thats how stupid it was. But latley whenever she asks me to do something (which is almost never) i tell her i wont be back till a certain time and then she will go off with them somewhere. I mean its not jealousy i know that, cause im happy shes hanging out with them.. But instead of us hanging out as much as we used to, we only see each other like maybe once every two weeks, if that. Its weird, cause we wont see each other at ALL next year, and i want to get as much of her as i possibly can RIGHT NOW. But i dont know if i should say something or just keep my mouth shut.
If she thinks im gunna go smoke pot with her, she's terribly mistaken. Sorry sister, its not me.
I love her tho.. I wish we could hang out more. I miss her.
Konrad comes home on friday: ) For good... hm... that feels so good to say that. I miss him too.. Especially last night. It was really weird, i think my movie made me all depressed or something. He told me early yesterday morning when he called that he watched a depressing drug movie and that the whole time he wanted to call to make sure i was alright, just cause he had this gut feeling he should call me. Well, last night i watched 'The Persuit of Happiness' and after watching it i threw on my ipod and i was just listening to music and i got really uncumfy, cause i was hot and apparantly sad about something haha. So i texted him to see what he was up to and i was just looking of pics of him on my phone that i took a while back and i just sorta got teary eyed.. haha I miss him : ( Soon tho... 4 more sleeps: )
xoxo
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Revealed on April 10th,
2007 @ 2:58 pm
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i have to write two essays by thursday.. how shitty is that? And i work tonight, and i have to teach vocal lessons and go to the studio on wednesday.. How am I going to make the time to write these two essays? fuck... 
I cant wait for it to just be over.
I am singing at the Musicians without Borders concert on thursday at the school. I guess a few people are coming to that. There are posters like allllllll over school.. All of them with my name spelt wrong. 'Dawndrea Erauw' like come one... seriously, get it right. hahaha 'Dondrea' ppffft
Someone circled my name on one of the posters and wrote 'HOT' in big letters.. haha i bet anymoney it was like luke crans or zack or something. losers
Konrad has his exams coming up and by the end of April he will be home for the summer.
And the next time he heads out to western, i'll be going too
Im really hungry right now... and my tummy kinda hurts.. I need to do like so much homework hahah. im cool.
This morning i was at robyns... she makes me laugh. I dont think i have hung out with her in honestly a month. Haha thats so long. Everytime i call her she is never home. It sucks balls. but its very true. She has her horse... hes too cute. Also matt. He lives in london too. pretty crazy. I guess he is working there in the summer and robyns not sure if things will work out with him or not. Shes pretty funny.
Omg last night i was talking to an old friend i used to go to public school with, his name is Tyler King. And well i dont want to be rude or anything by saying this, but hes changed like so much, not in a bad way, but like looks and everything. Its so crazy how people change so drastically over time. We were talking about our lives, what we are all up to, who we are dating, interests and stuff and hes really cool. I guess he has ADHD haha.. oh man.. Kinda reminded me of Eddie Bellamy haha. Working with that kid is just too funny. He does so many retarted things at work.. haha. So tyler said hes gunna try and get some of his friends to come out to the show tomorrow night.. The more people the better!!
Peace out revenge yo- (hahhaha)
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Revealed on March 28th,
2007 @ 11:22 am
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Its not that i dont trust him. I love him. Im just scared out of my mind, and it doesnt help when his "ex" friends are constanly saying things either about him or me, its scary.
I dont want him to loose his friends because of me. But in reality, why isnt sam his friend anymore? If she was his friend, wouldnt she respect his desicions?
and why cant the ex keep her mouth shut and not have to go around ruining other peoples lives just because hers is so horrible. Its unfortunate that her life sucks and that she has issues and alot of problems. But she doesnt have to be so fucking messed up that she has to ruin other peoples lives because shes not satisfied with hers. Fuck off. you ruined it once for me, dont ruin it again, go fuck up your life and other peoples lives somewhere else. because your not welcome here.
and even though its an old comment, and i dont care anymore, its just hard to read things like this...
"Hey sammy, yet another random morning myspace comment. It is now 6:18 in the morning and I still love you, but I'm sorry, if things work out with me and laurel I'll have to call it off, hope there are no hard feelings... its now 6:19 "- 8 days after we broke up.
Please dont hurt me.. I feel like us again, im so happy..
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| All these things I wish I could say. |
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Revealed on March 11th,
2007 @ 11:47 am
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I know im not supposed to feel this way, i know im supposed to be angry until forever more, be unforgiving, and shut you completley out of my life. But i just cant do that. I miss you. so much.
just be careful with my heart, and I'm yours.
call out my name.
I'll be there.
I have so much i want to say to you.
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I cant stop.
I always wonder.
I feel anxious.
I have butterflies.
I can forgive you.
I missed you.
I say, Stay.
I want you.
I love you.
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Revealed on March 9th,
2007 @ 1:43 pm
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Its very simple... Just do it.
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Revealed on March 1st,
2007 @ 12:16 pm
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Even after everything thats happend... Even after me finding out things. Until this day, im still finding things out..
Im so dissapointed..
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2007 @ 9:02 pm
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I love friends, and drinking, and cops, and parents, and kisses. a combination of all? > dawns 18th birthday
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Revealed on February 11th,
2007 @ 10:48 am
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so the volleyball tournament was good times.. It was so cool, we played so much and we almost won haha, but these teams were pretty damn good.
Anyway... Tuesday we have a game against cayuga, should be good.
So this morning i went to work thinking i worked 10-2 and im really pissed off because turns out i work 1-5 so my plans to go to the mall were all fucked up. My mom had some stuff she needed to get and there were a few cds i wanted to pick up.
Im pissed.
Anyway, skooled is on tonight, should be interesting cause its part of my class, and im interested in how they made it look lol.
YOU BETTER WATCH IT:P
so friday night was a complete disaster haha. Robyn got plastered, and her boy matt was there, it kinda sucked, cause im pretty sure she threw up in my moms laundry hamper, my mom got really pissed and when mike and a few people showed up at the door, she said the party was over and she was bitching infront of all of them, it was dumb.
Caitlyn is coming down in 5 days, im happy about that:) I have alot of homework to start... um.. oh yeeea, tomorrow is gunna be a huge busy day for me.
I have a bunch of homework stuff i have to hand in.. Then i have a volleyball practice, that i cant miss. I believe im going to be teaching vocal lessons tomorrow and i have no fucking clue what im doing. And then im supposed to have a work meeting but i think im gunna say fuck it, and go and watch my boys play at the underground. Emissary.. They need some work, lol but im still here for support. ye ye..
Thats my day, im sad i have to work later tonight : (
i need out!!!
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Revealed on February 8th,
2007 @ 10:46 pm
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So, the past couple of days have been pretty hectic.. Ive gotten so much homework latley and it sucks big time, but i have no choice but to do it, if westerns where i want to go, I have to do really good this semester or im screwed.
Ive been to the studio, worked two nights, had two volleyball games and a practice, all in just 4 days. Plus my homework.
My body is like killing me.. And something really funny was brought to my attention today in first periods Writers Craft.
I sit beside Ashley Coles and my one favourite girl Claire! and we were talking about boys haha. and we had a supply so we really didnt do a whole damn lot. Claire mentioned this guy justin that she's seeing. Ashley mentioned a boy she had a thing for but wasnt sure if it was going anywhere and they asked me if i was seeing anyone haha, and i didnt have anything to say haha, and they said i needed to go out on a date bad, and it totally made me think the last time i was on a date, and i realized it was WAY before the summer sometime... That is so sad haha.
Tomorrow Robyn is coming to hang out with her boy Matt again, so i'll probably end up drinking tomorrow too... um...
This is my last weekend of working untill my birthday!!! My best friend caitlyn is coming down for the weekend (next week) for my birthday, and i think im going to have a party at my house on saturday night for everyone and all.. anyone who wants to come really.. im 18 now!! yeeea:)
Well i have an Isu topic to start working on already in my world issues class and two essays to start in two different english classes before monday... I have a volleyball tournament in St Catherines tomorrow at Eden Highschool. Should be interesting..
Speaking of which, i should make a cd for volleyball.... hmmmm yeeea..
bye dudes!
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Revealed on February 5th,
2007 @ 12:51 am
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i still dont know you and i hate it.
i need a snuggle to a random movie like the butterfly effect or eternal sunshine...as stupid as that sounds. but i need a big hug right now. Ive had the worst day ever and i need a little lazy time on a couch...
i need a boy to tell me im beautiful even when im stressed...But ive looked high and low..and i feel like giving up..
Im only 18..(in two weeks) but....i still can feel wanted by someone cant I? thats not wrong..
I know i dont need a boy, i can be me.. But...but... it feels so perfect being wanted...
and i have no choice but to ask myself this question..
Are you out there anywhere????
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Revealed on February 3rd,
2007 @ 7:23 pm
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Well... Last night was a freaking blast haha. I hadnt had good times like that in quite sometime.. Rachel my friend from brock came down and she brought random drinks, my best friend Robyn came and brought her new crush matt, who happens to go to western lol kinda cool.. I think hes so perfect for her haha i love it!
um... josh and zack where there.. josh smelled like greasey burgers from A&W and zack and i were like moshing in my basement it was freaking good times..
I drank way more then i thought i was going to haha.. so much so that I smashed my face agaisnt robyns head and like it still is throbbing.. haha.. I was dancing to paramore and lady soverigne with robyn and rachel and my mom came down when she heard the dead and divine like blaring and i was sooo drunk, and she like tapped me on the shoulder and i didnt even know she tapped me i couldnt see haha my face was just smashed by robyns and my mom was like a completle blurr..
haha.. so i turned down the music and about an hour after that and eating tonnes of pizza and wings, everyone went home..
um.. i decided alot of my "old" friends are pissing me off.. I cant really name them just cause.. well thats just down right rude.. but maybe if i explain without names it might come accross to people haha..
Im sick of this person thinking thier my friend and constantly being soooooo nice to me and doing all these things for me and asking me all these stupid anoying questions that are so pointless.. Like i know i sound like a complete and total bitch (cause work really pissed me off today) but im not.. Ive been friends with this guy for like years.. and after me specifically asking him if he had any feelings for me like half a year ago and him saying no... really pisses me off when he tells other people hes in freaking love with me and would loose weight for me and does all this stuff for me just hoping i will be happy.. Im sorry but hes the most annoying person in the world at times, and i love him to death as my friend.. but im wanting to move on in life and i cant deal with this shit anymore..
The other person, makes me more mad then you can imagine.. Hes the most immature person i have ever met in my intire life. And im sorry if he cant go to his parents to talk about anything,but you dont have to put all your shit out on your friends.. Yea we are here for you, we want to be the person you can lean on.. But when you ask for our advice and we tell you you are making a mistake, fucking listen to us and stop being so hypocritical... You like one girl one minute.. think you love her, get obsessed with her, then loose her cause you expect to much from people, and then you obsess over them some more because they dont love you back and some how thier the fucking ass hole liar when you in relatiy made them want to jump off the cliff with your stupid 5 year old ways.. and then you like some different girl and the whole cycle starts all over again.Grow the fuck up and stop being the person no one can ever talk to about anything cause you always have to dissagree..
hahaha.. i needed to get that off my chest.. Im really really not a bad person, but somtimes people just dont make sense to me and its so stupid how we act.. im sure people could name a few things about me like that..
I also decided im sick of the same regular routine... im sick of me repeating past issues.. past things ive done and said. Not necessarily bad, but just things.. I get a certain way.. I think something and i get really excited and i dunno.. Im still a kid deep down and sometimes i wish i could change my ways, change my thinking on certain things and think and do things like an adult but still be a cool fun kid at times. I find myself not making much sense.. my heart wanting to do one thing and my mind wanting ot do another. Its actually quite anoying.
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Revealed on February 2nd,
2007 @ 2:58 pm
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Well last night was one of the most interesting things that I'm pretty sure ive ever seen.. It totally didnt end at all like i thought it was earlier that day.
I basically layed around the house all day.. And at like 3 or 4 i decided to stop being lazy and actually do my hair and throw on some make up to make myself look somewhat decent. The whether out side was appsolutley shitty.. The snow was making me depressed, and infact as we speak the snow outside is making me depressed.. It just keeps snowing and im already ready for summer.
Im ready for new times, new everything.
So later on at like 10, i headed over to st george arms and they had this open mic night i guess the hours are from like 8-12 and there was a bunch of people there. Well i barley knew anyone. It was kinda awkward. There was this grade 10 band from my school who played.. They are all like old stuff, alot of motleycrue, and eagles and cool randomness like that. All the drunk old men at the bar liked it.
I felt kinda intimidated, here i am this 17 year old, by herself, singing a bunch of her original songs, no one wants to hear this shit.. I only did two covers, one no one knew at all, and two was alanis morissette, how many people drinking at a bar at 11 pm at night want to hear alanis morissette?
Pah... oh well, i said fuck it.. im a musician i'll play anyway. I so did and turned out this drummer from another band he was like 20 something took a seat at his drum set and starting throwing beats to my songs haha it was good times.
And then the guy running it asked me if i could sing knocking on heavens door with him so of course i did. With my motzerella sticks at my side. yum... i could go for some right now.
Anywho, matt and frankie were supposed to come, sad times, the ride situation was unfortunate..
But what can yea do!? Im sure there are good hangouts ahead!
Well the part that completley threw my night off.. Was just before i left for the open mic night.. I got an email from Konrad.. and this is what it said..
Hey dawn, I know you don't want to hear from me at all but I didn't think an email would hurt. How you doing? How's school? Are you looking forward to skool'd as much as me? lol, I might have to miss the first episode though cause I'm probably going to be pretty doped up on tuesday, lol. I'm back in town for the weekend, just need to get away. But anyways I just wanted to see how you were doing. You're doing great I assume. Take care,
1. because i havnt talked to the kid in ages
2. he never caves and is the first to talk to someone after a very blunt goodbye.
3. i wasnt sure if i should even reply to it.
i did breifly.. and told him i was heading out. He ended up texting me at the st george arms..and i told him i was just about to sing..
We ended up talking for a while.. It was really random.. And it wasnt weird seeing him. The main reason i went was to make sure things were okay. He's really sick and i know he needed to talk to someone, and even after all the shit he did to me i still sat there and listened.. kind dumb of me.
but im so over it all. Im so ready to move on.. Cause i dont think about it anymore and that makes me really happy.
Sitting there listening to him pour his heart out about how he feels like he seriously doesnt have much time left in his life and that at any day he could die.. Is kinda hard to deal with. He said he had no one to talk to.. No one at school he could open up to, and none of his friends at home could.
And at that moment..I realized that i was his past.. I was the one person that reminded him of his past, of who he was. He was a total turn around. He changed more then anyone i have ever met. He even admitted it, last week he was running from the cops with a 40 in his backpocket making a fool out of himself. he even admitted that that wasnt him.. and im happy i let that all go. It wasnt on my table anymore, the cards were all on his side, and he didnt have a good hand.
For once.. I was the one who was happy, completley content by myself, not needing anyone to talk to. and he was the one who had all these emotions, and feeling like he needed to get things off his chest.
To him i'm this girl who will be there all the time, part of the past that never changed.
And im not.. i will be there in a case of an emergency, i am a good person i do care. But there is a line that cant be crossed, im not his friend anymore.
And im ready to be me again..
I had another good phone conversation last night too! one that involved smiling haha. : )
So Im doing pretty good, im in a really good mood right now, and im just waiting on a phone call from rachel so we maybe can do something today..
Im just waiting for my prince charming to come rescue me, or has he already started?
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Revealed on February 1st,
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Well.. It always seems to blow up in my face somehow right? Its so funny, like i seriously laugh really hard just thinking about it.
I still found out things months after being with that kid.
For instince.. Him sleeping over at her house.. without her wanting him there.. Its kinda funny.. Cause now that hes single.. She still doesnt want him, so whats his problem? Hes not feeling that great.. hes sick... and i really do hope hes okay, im a really caring person, and if anything happened to him, then i would be very upset..
But maybe his luck really has run out.. Maybe everything small and large that hes been complaining about, really wasnt that bad after all.. Can people actually ever be thankfull for what they have without having to learn the hard way?
I know that i havnt looked back.. Infact, im looking so far forward, that i cant see behind me even if i tried..
The night i found out was an interesting night lol.. I was on the phone for quite sometime and had a really decent conversation with someone on the phone, and i hadnt done that in forever. It was kinda cool. I smiled!
The funniest part.. Is the last entry i wrote was written when i was drunk... haha the truth does sometimes come out when your drunk.. Oh dear.. I dont really hate anyone, i just really really dislike people.. And at the time i just sorta found that out.. So i was drunk and angry.. dont blame me lol.
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